Dedication and Future Direction

Over the past year or so, i have really struggled to find the dedication to really stick to a principle. I think this is most clearly evident from the posts in this blog, where i say im going to do X, and i dont ever really stick with it. I think the main issue is when you log into your account and see a lot of money in comparison to the stakes you are playing, it can really initiate some spewy plays (at least for me). The past few days have been especially terrible, i lost like 25k between sites/hu/6m/fr/plo etc etc, with some of those losses being absolutely spewtastic. I mean some of those sessions youd think 5k was play money the way i acted, which is pretty terrible and really not what poker is about.

So i have withdrawn down to basically nothing on stars and im planning on trying to work my way back up through the stake levels in plo. I cant truly withdraw all my funds from online, i need to have money on ftp for a few people i still back and whatnot, but stars plo is going to be my primary goal until i feel like i am playing well enough to reallocate funds to play with.